first time ive cried in days god what am i doing like i dont even want to go to therapy anymore because i know shes going to make me face who i am just some dumbfuckign crybaby that cant handle anything because i cant face myself so im just going to run away because thats what i do with everything i did it with chris because he was going to make me see who i really was and i got scared and i shut him out and he knew it was going to happen and i hate myself for doing that because i cant handle i cant deal and i do this all to myself and i want to stop it and i know i can but i fucking wont and its like i dont even have a real problem because even my therapist said that i have so much success in my life and there is no proof of this self destructive nature i speak of she said i want you to prove to me that you are this self destructive person i dont want to do this anymore
12.31.05                                      so fucking st e r  i   l    e  .
stop plagiarism.
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